not brave enough

Facing a lots "problem"
*maybe the problem is not a problem at all, amd dunno wheter this is the symbol of depression

I really become weaker and weaker,
Tears become part of my life
I act as a tough person in front of others
but i'm a loser for me

Open the books for whole day
but i onli get not much of it

Now
just hoping to end my final as soon as possible
i expect nothing for sem 2 results
because i knw that i cant score well

The only things appeared in my mind is to find out another way for myself
A way that can excellent myself
But
have not much idea on it
I not brave enough to make any choices
Scare
i
get LOST
again
&
again